if so, return home.
but, if you are here for a reason, keep it in mind.
if you are just here to kill time, to overthink, to agonize, then listen: everything comes in its own time.
that's what everyone says, right?
if you can believe that, if you can wait, then you are free to wait here.
if you struggle with ideas of fate and destination, you are free to wait here too. let yourself think about it.
no matter the reason, no matter the effort put into it, some things don't come easily.
some things move in cycles. some things come back around again and again, and you can't let go of them
and you can't embrace them either without giving up a a part of yourself
and you can't forget, and you can't change, and you want to change so badly it becomes your entire being,
that desire,
and it consumes you until you have become the cycle, embodied it
and you see no way out.
that's okay too. you have been somewhere else before. you will be somewhere else again.
come with me to a more linear path, for a while?